Who was your first love?

[The Zevad]

I hear about love this. Love that. And look at my life and realize I never really been in love. I really thought I was once. I met this girl/woman D---n when I went to Rhode Island College. She was different. Nothing like any girl I met. Burped in front me. Cut the cheese. Liked what I like. I thought I fell in love with her. But at that point in my life (and I sometimes wonder if it was for the best) I was a coward. To afraid to take a chance or confess my feelings. So this friendship we had slipped from my fingers. We started hanging out less and less and I always got these excuses from her. It was impossible to get in touch with her. What I didn't get was that well. She wanted me out. Course D---n just doesn't know how to be direct...well....hmmm.

Eventually in February of '04 After not hearing from her except in bits and pieces she told me she was engaged. She had met this personal trainer at her gym in March of '03. They started dating in October of '03. My God I was totally crushed. I hated myself for not telling her. I fucking despised my cowardice. I tried calling her but I choked up. I was in tears. I was a freaking mess. So I sent her a e-mail. Confessing my love for her (but really I wasn't) telling her I appreciated her in life and cursed my cowardice. But I was better for knowing her. And I was ending the friendship. That knowing her was a great time in my life but I couldn't be in friendship with her knowing her heart belong to someone else and that it was killing me. I wished her well.

ONE WEEK LATER.

I got an email. God. She wrote back that she never knew I felt like that. And that we shouldn't end three years of knowing each other. She didn't want to lose a good MOVIE BUDDY like me. And that she needed a couple of days to figure things out.

I was pissed. Movie buddy? You couldn't even call me a friend? I'm a movie buddy? What the hell is wrong with you? And I whined like the bitch I am and said and went to watch Jersey Girl by myself.

ONE WEEK LATER.

She wrote back. Complaining about how many hours she worked. And got angry I didn't invite her to go see a Kevin Smith movie with her. And that she needed a few more days to figure out what to say with me.

My God. The drama....the drama. God bless Criden he helped me keep my mind. Oh we tried to mend the friendship. But it was broken. It was broken! LONNNNNG AGO. I realized what a cold hearted moron she was. I realized I wasn't in love with her. I was in love with a fantasy of her. My God...the last time I saw her was June of 04 and we went to Providence Place Mall. She compared herself to every hot girl there. Than she asked me if I pluck my eyebrows. I said the truth. No I don't. She than said wow you have perfect eyebrows. Than looked at my hands. You have perfect hands she said. Than she said especially compared to my hands and eyebrows....OKAY. Than after she emasculated me somemore that was the last time I saw her.

So what brought back these bitter memories? She wrote me a email today. Bragging about her upcoming two year wedding anniversary and how she hates working. The hell did I see in the moron? OY VEY!

And now your stories?

Lord? Don't let her procreate. Amen. Come to think of it. Don't let me procreate. Amen.

[monkeyboy]

watch out! emo thread!

[Taki Soma]

watch out! emo thread!
is my emo eyeliner smudged enough, do you think?

[The Zevad]

watch out! emo thread!

Go to my myspace man. I got a nice emo song on the front page. :lol: :scared:

[monkeyboy]

is my emo eyeliner smudged enough, do you think?

not unless you have written on your wrist,"Do not open until Christmas."

[The Zevad]

is my emo eyeliner smudged enough, do you think?

....................

You confuse me. :mistrust:

[monkeyboy]

....................You..you confuse me. :mistrust:

what? not enough?

[The Zevad]

what? not enough?

Never enough son. Never. Confusion is the fuel I run on.

[The Roman Candle]

The Internet is not ready for my story.

Although some of the sexier parts can be found in the Tip thread.

[monkeyboy]

The Internet is not ready for my story.

Although some of the sexier parts can be found in the Tip thread.

now you're just bragging.

[The Roman Candle]

now you're just bragging.

It involves the bridge of a Galaxy Class starship. You'd brag, too.

[monkeyboy]

It involves the bridge of a Galaxy Class starship. You'd brag, too.

now you're just smokin' too much.

[monkeyboy]

It involves the bridge of a Galaxy Class starship. You'd brag, too.

Wait a minute! You had a thing with Wessely?!

[The Roman Candle]

now you're just smokin' too much.

Swear to god.

[monkeyboy]

Swear to god.

Naw swear to somethin' else. They found him in Undiscovered Country and he was a hoax.

[The Roman Candle]

Wait a minute! You had a thing with Wessely?!

TOO LATE. Once you've already replied, it's too late for a wise-ass zing. Internet rules, mate.

[amy]

Naw swear to somethin' else. They found him in Undiscovered Country and he was a hoax.



The appropriate response is

"Swear to ME"


-Batman

[The Roman Candle]

Naw swear to somethin' else. They found him in Undiscovered Country and he was a hoax.

Swear to logic, the borg queen, and Noonien Soong.

[monkeyboy]

TOO LATE. Once you've already replied, it's too late for a wise-ass zing. Internet rules, mate.
but i thought we were playing by Calvin Ball rules.

[Craig C]

Did I just stumble into a parallel message board or something? Who are you people and what have you done with the poster's that I have grown to know and love?

[The Zevad]

Did I just stumble into a parallel message board or something? Who are you people and what have you done with the poster's that I have grown to know and love?

You have entered the Zevad Zone. Run into a hot shower. Fold up into a fetal position and rock yourself as you cry. Welcome!

[TheTravis!]

My first love? Sigh.

http://www.chlotrudis.org/news/kitty.jpg

She left me for some big dumb Russian jock asshole.

[Ryan Elliott]

The appropriate response is

"Swear to ME"


-Batman



Here's my first love right here.


*swoon* :heart:

[Jerome Gibbons]

My first love? Sigh.

http://www.chlotrudis.org/news/kitty.jpg

She left me for some big dumb Russian jock asshole.
I bet the sex must've been great, though.

[amy]

Here's my first love right here.


*swoon* :heart:


:rogue:

[Ryan Elliott]

:rogue:



:spidey:

[The Girl]

http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v299/jrock_junkie22/sarah6.jpg

[amy]

:spidey:



I loves me some Batman Begins.

[Humphrey_Lee]

I'm pretty sure I was in love with my bestest chick type friend Alicia two years back. I thought about her pretty much every day when I wasn't hanging out with her. Then again, I might have just been really hard up at the time and was jonesing for her because we got along so well. I really dunno how this shite works.

[The Zevad]

http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v299/jrock_junkie22/sarah6.jpg


Groovy. Me? I'm just bitter. Oh well. :nonono2:


I'm pretty sure I was in love with my bestest chick type friend Alicia two years back. I thought about her pretty much every day when I wasn't hanging out with her. Then again, I might have just been really hard up at the time and was jonesing for her because we got along so well. I really dunno how this shite works.

Yeah I think I was the same way. I think I "fell in love" with Dawn because well I had nothing better to do. And unrequited love was easier than dealing with the real thing. Cowardly. Eck. Learned from it at least.

[Mikie]

Ah Zevad...I think we may be very much alike. My story of the first girl I fell for is quite similar...though mine is a little more recent.

It was ComiCon and I was staying with a friend. I had driven down so, I had my car (he doesn't have one). He asked if I would drive him to the airport so he could pick up another friend staying for the con. I agreed and on Wednesday afternoon, away we went.

We're waiting for her to get off the plain (only one of us knows what she looks like, and it wasn't me). The flight was on time and we are still waiting. Did we miss her? I'm told what she is supposed to be wearing and start walking around baggage claim looking for someone dressed like that.

As I'm looking, I notice this girl. And I'm trying to track down this person we're supposed to be picking up, but I keep finding myself looking over at this girl waiting for her luggage.

Of course, I'm far too cowardly to go over and introduce myself. Still don't know how to do that without seeming creepy.

Eventually, I go back to my friends and let them know i couldn't find her.

"It's okay. We found her"

A moment later, that same girl I noticed in baggage claim walks over with her bag.

My heart swells in my chest.

So, I spend a bit of time with her and she is just really cool. She's into all this geeky stuff I'm into and is just really warm and personable.

After the con, I make it a point to keep in touch with her. We become friends. On our way to good friends. I, of course, want something more.

So, I start changing. I start getting in shape and making positive changes in my life and lifestyle. As cliched as it sounds, she makes me want to be a better man. Someone worthy of her.

After a while, she comes out for a visit. Things don't go as well as I'd hope, but overall it's a good visit. She has a good time.

A few days before she leaves, I decide to tell her how I feel. Part of me knows this is a mistake. That I'm jeopardizing a friendship here.

But I can't live with not saying anything.

I ask her to sit down and I start to tell her. She doesn't let me finish. She panics. As much as I worried, I wasn't prepaid for this reaction. I'm absolutly crushed and know that the friendship is over.

I try and keep the friendship together because she is someone I feel I want in my life. But she keeps me at arms leingth. Her emails are cold and come far less frequently. And she only responds to about half of them.

The couple times I see her after that, she is cold and distant.

I figure after a while it'll get better. It doesn't.

I start to notice she only contacts me when she wants something. I decide that it isn't worth it. That if I'm the only one making the effort, then I shouldn't even bother. She isn't really my friend and maybe she never really was.

But I refuse to think the worst of her and won't talk badly about her. I hope she does well in life and in her career. I just no longer want to be a part of it.

[Persevering Guy]

hey, you guys. don't feel bad. you need these experiences to learn from.

i know it sucks. go get some more experience.

oh, and you usually find love when you're not looking for it

[Humphrey_Lee]

hey, you guys. don't feel bad. you need these experiences to learn from.

i know it sucks. go get some more experience.

oh, and you usually find love when you're not looking for it

Jack Daniels, on the other hand, is always where you need it to be :D

[The Cheap-Arse Film Critic]

I forget her name, but I was 11 or 12, I think.

She had an identical twin sister.

Missed out there.

[SimiBoyz]

The Internet is not ready for my story.

Although some of the sexier parts can be found in the Tip thread.

I'll have to see if I can get a LF special on that.

[Alex(sadly)Maleev]

I was 10 when I promised to marry her. I almost did 15 years later. She is one of the most amazing people I know in my life.

[The Zevad]

Ah Zevad...I think we may be very much alike. My story of the first girl I fell for is quite similar...though mine is a little more recent.

But I refuse to think the worst of her and won't talk badly about her. I hope she does well in life and in her career. I just no longer want to be a part of it.

Yeah. But I think worse of Dawn. I never really knew her man. My own fault. But once I found the evidence in the emails and talking to her....what the hell did I see in that moron. Sigh. :nonono2: Eck. I learned. Whatever.

[Jacob Lyon Goddard]

http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v447/ImprovingGODDARD/tm1.bmp
i still think about her every day

[The Zevad]

http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v447/ImprovingGODDARD/tm1.bmp
i still think about her every day


.........LISA?!






Just kidding. ;-) :lol:

[Jacob Lyon Goddard]

i don't get it
who's lisa?

[Rado]

[a girl]

Wait, that's wrong...


[THE girl]

I'm pretty sure I saw those pictures at Image Boards. It's really inspiring that nothing had changed in this regard.

[fertilityhollis]

James Michael Hearne.

[Alex(sadly)Maleev]

I found a photograph of her on her website. There she is.
http://www.orientaldance.no/images/16/vivaldi_small.jpg

[who cares?]

have never even come close to love

[Alex(sadly)Maleev]

have never even come close to love
But you love music;-)

[The Zevad]

i don't get it
who's lisa?

Siiiighhhhh......Lisa...:cry: